Pulled Through Moments

I just had another one of those moments. When I text my friend and he's too busy to respond and I try to find a chat site to relieve the of feeling...alone, rejected... Must I go on? No. You understand my point. There are times when I can't even sit up, or think straight because I feel like I'm not good enough to. Like no one will ever care about me beyond what they need for me.

This evening was another one of those nights. After getting yelled at my parents, I grabbed my phone anxiously, texting the one person I thought would care. And don't get me wrong, he's still a good friend. But it's just hard to get a reply back saying... "sorry, busy" when you finally feel like you are able to talk about your problems with someone who may actually help you. So, what did I do? Grabbed my computer and typed in the rusty URL of the chat site I go to a lot. And what happens? I get paired with someone who decides to quote a song and then disapparate.

Then I look up. What's sitting on the coffee table right in front of me? My Bible. What's undernearth the Bible? My binder, containing old church programs with all of the lessons in them. What more did I need, I thought? I took out the program and it was about honestly praying to God about feelings that we have. Though they may be sinful, pray to God about them.

So I did. And suddenly I didn't feel so alone anymore. God did something for me that helped me through this darkness. And I can't even explain what it is. Because I don't know for sure. It's almost as if He pit a heart back into my heart. Like He put warmth in it, where I felt like it was a big frozen hole in the middle of me. I felt terrible. I realized just how much God does for me. And what do I do in return? I sin. Nevermind that, I don't even thank Him. At least not as much as I should.

So, there's my recent "pulled through" moment. Feel free to share yours and spread the word about just how amazing and loving God is.