Self Harm...

Touchy topic I know... Don't even need to say anything. It's something I've had issues with. I can't say they've caused problems, well, at least not to a huge extent, because they really haven't, and I know that there are plenty of people who struggle with this more than I do. But, I can't say it's never happened to me before.

So, what's my solution? Look at the picture above. Instead of cutting into my skin and drawing blood, pain and hurt, I draw out love, forgiveness and salvation. Through God. Because God pulls me through as wlways. And that's what I encourage anyone reading this post to do.

If you have issues with self harm or anything self destructive to relieve the pain, then try this. Where/Whenever you feel it's necessary, remind yourself that God is there and God cares for you and you will remember that you are loved so greatly and so immensely that no mortal on Earth could love you so much, and you will remember that self destriction is not what helps, but faith and love.

Struggle Against Loneliness

Recently, I've been having problems with loneliness. I've felt like there was no one close enough that I could talk to and that no one really cared enough about me or understood me. And this week, I tried to end that through God. Through praying every night, and knowing that whenever I felt lonely, there was a God for me, and he loves and cares for me and understands me better than any mortal being.

And he taught me a valuable lesson this week that helped me and will help me to face loneliness for the rest of my life. He taught me valuable lessons about what it means to be lonely and how I can change that feeling.

God taught me that the best way to feel like someone is there for you is to be there for someone else.

So, there's the lesson. If there's something in your life that you really feel you can not take and that is hurting you more than you can say, the best thing to do is to go to God because he will help you and he will give you need.

Before God

This weekend, I thought about something. What is affectng my relationship with God for the worse? There are definitely things that I can think of that are. Anger, lies. Those are some. But, what can I do about them? It's not like I conciously sit down and think about those little white lies I tell. Sometimes, I do it because it seems...easier.

But it's not easier in my relationship with God. My relationship with God has been somewhat thrown off the wagon at certain times. I mean, there have been times that I just can't understand what I'm supposed to do next. Which is why now that my relationship is strengthened, I would do aoything to maintain it.

Which is why I left things down before the Lord. Things like lying, getting angry, envy. How did I do this? Well, I first wrote them down and left them where they belong God and not me. This is where we then use another peice of paper to write them down and keep them to remind ourselves of what we have left before God.

I encourage everyone to do this as it is one way for God to pull us through thinking about Him when making everyday decisions.

Special Prayer Request

Stop Joseph Kony. That's a common phrase nowadays.

After watching that video, what do you think? About all the injustices those poor children are facing right now? What can we do about it though?

What do you do to glorify God? Sing, dance, create beautiful artwork that the world loves to see? Use your talents to spread the word about this mission aimed at helping innocents who did nothing to deserve this fate.

And pray. We not only need to spread the word about this situation to people in the world. But we need to show God how much we care. We need to pray for them because they are God's creations as well. They are God's children. And they are going through something that no one can even begin to comprehend. I encourage you. Send this video, spread the word, tell your friends, tell God. For there can never be enough people to know about the injustices occuring in the world.

Pulled Through Moments

I just had another one of those moments. When I text my friend and he's too busy to respond and I try to find a chat site to relieve the of feeling...alone, rejected... Must I go on? No. You understand my point. There are times when I can't even sit up, or think straight because I feel like I'm not good enough to. Like no one will ever care about me beyond what they need for me.

This evening was another one of those nights. After getting yelled at my parents, I grabbed my phone anxiously, texting the one person I thought would care. And don't get me wrong, he's still a good friend. But it's just hard to get a reply back saying... "sorry, busy" when you finally feel like you are able to talk about your problems with someone who may actually help you. So, what did I do? Grabbed my computer and typed in the rusty URL of the chat site I go to a lot. And what happens? I get paired with someone who decides to quote a song and then disapparate.

Then I look up. What's sitting on the coffee table right in front of me? My Bible. What's undernearth the Bible? My binder, containing old church programs with all of the lessons in them. What more did I need, I thought? I took out the program and it was about honestly praying to God about feelings that we have. Though they may be sinful, pray to God about them.

So I did. And suddenly I didn't feel so alone anymore. God did something for me that helped me through this darkness. And I can't even explain what it is. Because I don't know for sure. It's almost as if He pit a heart back into my heart. Like He put warmth in it, where I felt like it was a big frozen hole in the middle of me. I felt terrible. I realized just how much God does for me. And what do I do in return? I sin. Nevermind that, I don't even thank Him. At least not as much as I should.

So, there's my recent "pulled through" moment. Feel free to share yours and spread the word about just how amazing and loving God is.